What a whirlwind of a week and weekend. I'm thrilled to have a normal day, with only the mundane tasks on my list. Laundry, what to do for dinner, cleaning the house.
My birthday party was great fun. Scott's idea of a private room at a fabulous Italian restaurant was really wonderful. The space was warm and lovely, the food and wine delicious. It was something we'd never done before, and so we were nervous about it, but it turned out great.
I've got some things on my mind for this here blog, but my brain is feeling so scattered. I've mentioned here before that I really appreciate a routine, and there was none last week. I kind of feel like my brain is bruised, from working through logistics and trying to remember everything I needed to....Can a brain get bruised by that kind of activity? anyway....Some unfinished thoughts I hope to delve into more deeply later this week:
1) Parenting a middle-schooler....feels like there are lots of opportunities to just screw the kid up. How do I know how far to push, how much to guide, how loose to hold him, what to let him do, what to not let him do...Keeping in mind all the while that this boy is a gift on loan to me from God. He's not mine, He's God's. I said to a friend yesterday, this part of parenting presents a new and different kind of fatigue.
2) Reading the book of Joshua, and trying to figure out what God is teaching me through these stories of battles and conquering entire towns, kings, armies, and all. God told Joshua the land would be theirs...and He helped them fight and conquer all these people. But Joshua still had to go out there and fight. Still had to kill people. God totally delivered in regard to His promise to the Israelites, but there was still work to be done.
3) Still reading Shel Silverstien's biography and blech. He was not a happy man. It's interesting, his story, and all of the things he did and people he knew....but his life was so empty. Full of all the world has to offer, and yet empty.
4) So, I'm 40 now. Am I using the things God has given me in the way that He wants?